tahun lalu kelmarin...

last year i almost always get NO for an answer.sometime i got a maybe,but then it turned into a NO.i guess got rejected make me a wiser man.wise to see things just don't work out without going into deep,being ignored is the sign for me to pack up and leave and expectation,i don't need it.just stick to the present not the future.don't expect anything.just do it.and if it work out,alhamdulillah,if not,alhamdulillah,no worry coz i didn't expect much and that was not for me.i guess i think to much and this gotta change.this year,i'm just gonna do anything,without expecting and thinking much.just want to try something new for this new year of the org puteh kalender.so,yeah.my first resolution for 2013 is not to think too much,stop making expectation in my head,and just do it.

monitor buat hal lagik utk kali ke tiga...

once again my fuJitsu monitor buat hal..ahaha..this is the final year of it's warranty.if it broke down next year,i have to get a new monitor..ahaha..well that is life.nothing last forever.right now i'm using my bro's monitor and it is so small and distorted that it make my eyes "heng"..sending my monitor tomorrow,for a month.ahaha.maybe i'll buy a new one.or i will be patient and wait for my monitor return to me,and mean while,i will ask my friend if he could spare me a monitor since he have 5 that he don't use.right now i feel like all of my mood is gone.writing this in here just to "madah" and "luah" jak.ahaha.so that's it.smile the "paksa" smile is much better then a frown and sigh..haahah.. ^^

yey for me..haha

i just have an apiffany that she is as regular as anyone else.it is just that I'm busying myself only with you that i have created an illusion where in my mind she is special and revolving my world around her limiting the endless possibility that there are plenty similar or if not better girls for me.therefore,it is easier for me to forget about her.. =)).and due to the conclusion that i come up with,i can say that she no longer occupied my mind thus freeing me of the dreadful feeling of missing her,wanting her and trying to be her "one".

p/s : betol nak ka penggunaan ayat aku tok ka..hahaha

WHATTTT????

surprise surprise... I'm totally out of sync right now..mind and heart..MENNNNAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR??????....

swimming birds in the sky....

caka juak ..sik da idea aku tok..haha...pa polah ari tok tek?well,ddk rmh nungu ujan..ujan trn,sejok da jak..kakya chat ngn "nya"..gila la aku rasa leh nya...nya tauk,tapi nya ttp juak polah aku kedak ya..kenak nya sik outkan "nok sorang ya"?..aku d tnyk camne nak good in realitionship.kenak "nok sorang ya" molah camya?.."nya",ktk tauk rasa kmk?jawap nyaman ati dirik pun aku oleh"nya".mun nak jawap realiti,tkt "nya" igt aku jaik ngn "nok sorang ya"."nya" sbenarnya,"nok sorang ya" ktk patut hati2,sbb kmk tkt nok sorang ya main2 ngn ktk jak.."nya",ktk ptt dah nanga dan tauk pasal sign bena sik n"nok sorang ya" sayang ngn ktk..jgn sik di ambik endah..p ya la "nya",mun hati dah ter-hook,ssh juak nak madah..hati mahu apa yg hati mahu,jika itu berlaku,maka hati jadi tak berhati2.. "nya",ada "sorang" madah kmk kejam,p ngn ktk,kmk sik pat..sik mauk kmk ilang ktk..........eh?jadi luahan perasaan indah tok..haha...oooo blog...tlg aku...mun la kau pande bekata2,pa nasihat kau ngn aku?blog?..mungkin kau madah"betepok sik pat sebelah tangan,carik la tangan sebelah gik pake ko betepok..move on"..nak blog?...haha...crap...

rasa ati aku tok ngn empuan ku suka pake lmolah bini mun da jodoh la mun sik da,jadi girlfriend jak la..haha(tetak sedih)

empuan,ona,girl,pasangan lelaki...ngeluh bila pikir pasal sidak tok...you know why?coz in my life there is not many empuan..it is like if i count with all of my hand and feet finger still got balance..love?far fetch idea..make empuan like me took lots of my time and energy,kredit.investment la tek..so tired to do la..but have to..if not,got no one to say sweet things to.feel lonely la if got no one to talk to..talk to kawan laki?sure..but when they r talking to their special one?still lonley..crap..desprate?don't think so..just lonely..ARGHHH!!!..right now,kaco someone..but she is playing tarik tali,you know,tug of war..sekejap da jak klu madah nya mauk ngn kita,kejap berik klu sik mauk ngn kita..krek jadi..kelak kita sik layan,madah kita sik sayang nya,bila kita layan,sik layan kita.bila d call madah "sayang kitak",tang da bunyi teragak2 jak madah "sayang kitak juak"..haiya..mix signal..tanyak pahal,padah sik da papa..nokne bena tok???nak d tinggal,sayang juak,nak sik di tinggal,boleh juak..mauk d main2 juak ka?right now i feel sick of this kind of thing..maybe i leave her..what is my option?find another girl?hah..so tired to do so right now..thik i stick to this one,but not too attach la..good thing i got this blog for myself to kerepak to myself in writing..gaga..krek dah tok..gaga...dapat juak luah perassan tok...haha..lega eh....