hati ini buat aku rasa pedap....

i really need a long and far away vacation.a really loooooooooooooog one..far away from here,far away from technology,far away where nobody can find me,far away that i can't find anybody.feels so tired.my heart feel heavy,my brain is like it got a really bad accident.my spirit is low,my morale is kaput.gunah gulana rasa diri ini.tidak menentu rasa nya,menulis entry tok pun rasa jarik ku berat dan sedih.cukup sudah sampai di sini.tdo jak la sblm layan lagu layan ada taman dalam hati..

2nd Generation of kitten...

last year there was this cat that came to our house and give birth to 3 kitten..and how i wish to kept them,but my mom didn't approve of it..ahaha..but,as time goes by,they still in our house and my mom didn't have the heart to throw them away just like that. unfortunately,one of the kitten died due to sickness.sad was i but what can i do,right?dah masanya nak pergi.the remain 2 named "chubby" and "blacky" is alive,well and playing like kittens do.then one day(3 bulan lebih camya la),out of nowhere came 2 children from the house adjacent to our house(belakang rumah kmk urg.hehe) claim that the mama cat and it's kitten is theirs.this happen without me knowing,coz i was out and they spoke to my mom.my mom say to them"ambik la pusak ktk urg ya,x makcik nganok juak.jaga mena2 sidak ya,berik makan cukup2,kelak rmh kmk urg juak d pegi nya carik brg makan."and after that lecture from my mom,both of them took the 2 kitten and never been seen again.i mean the kittens and the kids.well,the mama cat still lurk at our house asking for food.i wonder what ever happen to the kittens.i hope they are still alive.a few days ago i saw a new kitten in the back of our house.and he always try to get in our house,along with his mama.and suprise2,the same mama cat that gave birth to the 3 kittens last year is his mother..aahaha..so,i grab my camera,and took a couple of picture and he was so "jinak"that when i pat him,he didn't run away.below is a couple picture of him that i took.. :)

p/s : after this photo was taken and i went somewhere,i didn't see this kitten again.maybe i will see it again.i'll keep looking for it..^^

Building a "house"

one day i will come and try.

not tomorrow,i'm still building.

when I've complete everything,

i won't know the result.

well,right now and then,

i'll put it all in the hand of Allah.

if it's meant to be,then it shall be.

if it's not,then it is not.

but not now,.i'm still building.

the time will come.it will.

look once,not twice...

"Jangan kamu ikuti pandangan pertamamu dengan pandangan kedua dan selanjutnya. Milik kamu adalah pandangan yang pertama, tapi yang kedua bukan"...i'm trying my best to follow this.it is hard,but it is not impossible.the devils are everywhere, whispering word of sweet lies and deceit that can make a man look again.even in my photography i try not to take picture of girls that don't cover their aurat.or girls that cover it.that is the reason why i want to stop taking a wedding job.for i do not wish to add up my sins.and when i do a wedding job,i tent to be picky.well i guess there is so little job for me,but i accept it as this is my new principle.a few month ago i did went to a TT that had talents that didn't tutup aurat(don't know what is tutup aurat in BI.ahaha).but i delete all of the pictures.to keep it is a sin,to share it is a sin also.now i'm tracking all of the photo that i shared and delete it.one step at a time..^^

satu,dua dan tiga tidak sama dari segi ejaan dan sebutan...

A girl :all man are the same...

A boy :If we man are the same,Then Why be so picky?.ehehe

A girl : ....well,gotta to see their other credential,like agama,so that he can lead me.that's why i need to choose the right one.and not get the sebarang2 guy.

A boy : so,all men are not the same,right?.same goes for women.there's not a single one of us are the same to the others.in agama,heart and looks.well,maybe there is 1 or 2 things that are in common.100%?NO.just because of 1 or 2 bad apple,rosak sepokok2 apple.ehehe.

p/s : the conversation above is not related to the one that still alive or already pass away.

Block...Brain..

right now aku rasa otak aku rasa macam nak jem..ahhaa..terlalu banyak gilak berfikir dan melihat gambar..adoi eh..heng juak akhirnya kepala ini..adoi eh..berat rasanya..huhu..i need a teacher.i need a guide...

time to say selamat tinggal..

"There is silence between us.i want it this way,coz it is time to let go.i've been holding on for so long that i'm tired of it.on this new year i choose to let go .you are a lost cause.i'm not giving up,i've tried everything in my power.now i just want to end it. i've told u before that i may let go,now is the time.well,as the saying goes,"setiap pertemuan,adanya perpisahan". :) .so,if fate have it we will meet again.maybe we will never meet again.but who knows right?it's all in the hand of Allah.i wish you all the best in life and health..thanks for including me in your life..i'll cherish the memories that we had together.so,farewell,dear friend.may u have a wonderful life ahead.you always in my heart...."